dusk and summer

Judge all you want, but there are some days when I really want to be Chelsea Handler or Joan Rivers without the plastic surgery. Most of your probably don't watch E! as often as I do (side note: this is becoming a problem: the fact that I agreed with Kourtney Kardashian when she chose Khloe to be Mason's guardian in her will instead of Kim is, to say the least, unacceptable behaviour), but I'm sure you're all familiar with these women. Most of the time, they're super crude, super lude and just down-right nasty. BUT. They say exactly what's on their minds and what they think about people. and I envy them a little bit.
I've got a bit of a passive personality: I don't like contention, I don't like confrontation, and I'm more likely to let people walk all over me than to stick up for myself. Some of you are saying, "ARE YOU KIDDING ME?". Answer: No. there have been a few times in my life where I've been a wench and stuck up for myself, but generally, I don't. This is why I admire Chelsea Handler and Joan Rivers- they're fearless, they don't care what people think or say about them, and they just say whatever they want about whoever they want.
Now. I'm not saying I want to be exactly like them, but sometimes, I wish I could just tell people what I think about them in a way that they understand me but don't hate me, you know? I mean, it's not like I have all of these bad feelings harboured up inside me and hate everyone. No. It's just that I wish I could be more assertive and tell it like it T-I-IS. ya know?


annnywayssss in other news, my life is pretty great. I just got back from San Diego from a nice little week-long vacation and it was just lovely. I'm such a homebody, it's alarming. I just really love being home, I really love my family and I really love San Diego. Is that so bad? Mostly, I spent the week reading, shopping, eating, watching movies and playing with Jonas and Caroline. Caroline is... a choosy baby, and the day I got there, she wanted nothing to do with me (that kid has a mean "angry face"), but after a week, she let me hold her at the Reuben H. Fleet and we played some awesome peek-a-boo in the car. She practically loves me now ;)

Other random things:
I got a new job! Woo! I'll be subbing for the local school district, which I'm excited about. Don't get me wrong- liked my old job, but I have approximately zero high school experience and I want it. I figure I'll get the experience and maybe a few contacts/recommendations for when I start actually teaching. I'll still be subbing at CHA, which is nice too. I wasn't quite ready to say goodbye to that place just yet :)

I also work outside of CHA with a little boy who was in my class this last year. We basically do awesome play dates to fun places: seven peaks, trafalga, hiking, parks, all sorts of stuff. It's a lot of fun and I love him a lot :)

My brother-in-law, Mikey gets married soon! It's gonna be good :)

My mom recommended a book to me, A Dog's Purpose: A Guide For Humans by W. Bruce Cameron and I read it while I was in San Diego. It's a really sweet, quick read. If you have a dog/love dogs, you should read it. My old bear, Slick, is getting old (he's 12 1/2) and he's a lot slower and more fragile than the last time I saw him so, this book really hit home. After I read it, I couldn't stop telling Slick what a good dog he is, how much I love him and how much he's meant to me throughout my life. Anyways, you should read it. It'll make you laugh, cry, smile and feel good all over :)

Speaking of good pets, Lloyd is still great. I love him a lot more than he loves me (some might say too much...), but he makes me happy. The truth about Lloyd is that I really really REALLY want a dog, but sadly, our landlord said no. So I got Lloyd instead. I really love Lloyd. He's a good little pig that keeps me company while Casey's working and he just makes me happy. Casey's not so fond of him, but we're working on improving that relationship.

One time, Casey and I decided that we would stop drinking Dr. Pepper. This lasted approximately 1 week. Then we realized how bad it sucked and have vowed never to do so again unless there is medical repercussions and we absolutely have to. I'm sorry Dr. Pepper, I'll never betray you again. Please forgive.


annnnd that's it for now. hope y'all are doing great :)


OH WAIT. I just thought of something. SOOOO we all know I have my guilty pleasures and one of them is clothes. You all know I don't dress super classy, but I absolutely love looking at clothes, especially dressy dresses that celebrities wear to their infamous soirees (this shouldn't be a huge shock: I just admitted to liking Joan Rivers, who hosts Fashion Police). ANYWAYS. A friend of mine posted this blog and I'm obsessed with this lady! She's The Refashionista and she will change how you feel about fashion. I WANT TO BE HER. Scroll through her blog, you're mind will be blown. no jokes.