Feeling Lucky

I SHOULD be studying for me Humanities 242 test, which is in 3 hours. Should. but instead, I'm sitting in the Wilk, sharing a table with a charming older woman (coveting her baked potato and praying she doesn't open her huge bag of corn nuts), drinking chocolatey milk, and watching girls get their hair cut for Locks of Love on the stage in the terrace (welcome to BYU).

This week has been an interesting one, I've learned a lot, made a few mistakes and spent most of my time on my knees. I've fixed a few bridges and learned how to build new ones. I've fallen in love with a few of my classes (hello Humanities 420) and realized that school isn't always fun, even when you have the best major (whatup Humanities 242...). I've had the talks that have started things in good directions and I've realized that I can balance, I can do what I need to and that the Lord is with me every step of the way.

and this girl on the stage has beautiful, thick curly hair and she's about to chop it all off. I feel like I should stop her. Anyways, the point of all this is that life is still beautiful, I'm happy with how things are, I can see the direction I want things to go and I know that I can do it. I know there's little stumbling blocks along the way but they're nothing I can't jump over and land gracefully.

I also love the song 'Promise the Stars' by We The Kings. you should all listen to it. now. :)

http://listen.grooveshark.com/#/search/songs/?query=promise%20the%20stars

Invincible

So. School is stressful. I spend my nights on the third floor of the JFSB or the first floor of the Library until they kick me out. I read about 700 pages a week. I write about 2.4 papers each week. But I’ve never been happier- life is good :)

Chin Up, Long. It'll Be Alright :)

I learned an important lesson this week and one of my best friends, who I love dearly and can’t thank enough, summed it up perfectly: “Sometimes you have to hurt people in order to give them what is ultimately the best thing”.

Sometimes it’s hard to see and to know that you did the right thing when it hurts someone you love so dearly so much. I still feel the sadness and pain, but ultimately, you just have to trust that you made the right decision. I wanted to be selfish and avoid this hurt with all my heart, but it’s not about me- it’s about someone else and what was best. I know they can’t see it now but that day will come; I promise.

Golden Moments

it's funny, I usually copy/paste my blogs because I tend to not capitalize my i's and because I'm lazy, I just let spell check do it for me. Tonight as I went to copy/paste something, I guess I forgot to actually copy it so I just pasted what ever the last thing I had copied was. This is what I pasted:

"Never let an earthly circumstance disable you spiritually."

This came from a talk by Elder Donald L. Hallstrom from the past General Conference in April 2010 that I read yesterday and it was one of those moments where it was exactly what I needed to read. Even though it focused on not being offended by those who do you wrong, I realized it's applicable to life in general. I'm sure you guys have noticed that I sometimes freak out about life; I'm easily one who gets caught up in the now and I get flustered when things don't go how I feel they should or expect them to. Basically, I let the little earthly things get in the way of my spiritual happiness and that's something I want to be better at. I think a huge part of life is learning to endure and overcome, not in the negative sense where you just have to get through it, but also in a more positive sense that you grow, learn and become better because of it.

So, moral of the story: I want to be spiritually stronger so when life's challenges come my way, I can turn to the Lord and be able to endure all things. deal : )


ps- this is a link to the talk, in case you're interested: http://lds.org/conference/talk/display/0,5232,23-1-1207-25,00.html

Cheer Up

I'm laying in my bed; I'm not in a good mood. I'm angry, upset, hurt, worried, sad, and not myself. Time to fix things.

What I'm grateful for:

- homemade cookies
- tomorrow is Sunday
- the repeat function on iTunes (still listening to 'Telephone'...)
- my family
- hymns
- surprise phone calls
- milk, both regular and chocolatey
- good news
- pizza
- people who love me
- Q-tips
- prayer and knowledge that the Lord hears me
- my bed, blankets and stuffed dog Fly
- peanut butter
- time
- the scriptures and moments where I appreciate the war chapters in Alma
- music that sounds how I feel
- my dogs, Slick and Sadie
- writing
- my hope chest at the foot of my bed
- the posters I just put up on my wall in my room
- art
- water
- Larkrise to Candleford (I want season 3!!!)
- my neighbours
- tomorrow is a new day :)

and now to bed. goodnight :)

aannnnnnnnnnnnddd back to square one. no good.

Give and Let Live, Love and Be Loved

I realized this past week how loved I am. I know that's kind of a conceited comment; let me explain. There's something beautifully happy when you walk in to a room and faces light up to see you, when you give some one a hug that you haven't seen in a while and you can feel how excited and happy they are because you're there. This may come as a shock to some of you but I've never been one to have a lot of confidence. For whatever reason, I doubt myself constantly and I think like most people, I'm my harshest critic. This past week, I felt how much people love me and it made me incredibly grateful for the amazing people that are in my life and how much more gratitude I need to express in my life. I guess you could say this is my personal declaration to be better at letting people know how much I love them and appreciate them. I know I get frustrated with people sometimes, but that's something I need to change because those people are just as deserving of love as I am, if not more so. So here's to love and loving and life. break.







and as a random note, I'm completely obsessed with 'Telephone' by Lady Gaga feat. Beyonce. Judge all you want but it's amazing.